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Monday, 28 October 2024

the enigma atop the perilous trek

The ruins of a chateau swayed sinisterly, with the echoing breeze wrapping itself around the alluring figure and enveloping the surroundings in a haunting haze. The remains lay atop a looming hill, with one wondering if it was a protector or a dictator of the town that lay beneath it. The cobblestone path strayed from intentions of warmth and cast a hopeless glow in the swirling night sky. It deceived those that were fearless enough to wander the vicinity, the foolish youth that confidently cast aside the treacherous warnings in an attempt of their own self worth, the hungry businessmen, intending to convince the owner of profit margins and tourism worth, or the roaming strangers, with an eye for survival and any place to rest. Those that returned with the reputation of forcing themselves to make the trek did so to placate themselves, with intentions that strayed from witnessing the concealed. It was a hopeless journey, but curiosity could not be suppressed.

If the mind had reluctantly settled upon undertaking the journey, intention be damned, then one had to account for other disasters. The path was often blocked by fallen trees, with the whirlwind of storms and winds thrashing against the weak, uprooting the evergreen in an incredulous, senseless manner, knocking them down like pebbles and it made out so carefully that they just had to lay upon the singular road that would bring visitors to the chateau. The whispers from the cowardly town below suggested that nature was intentionally warning, protecting the living from whatever strange inhabitants, and the rumours had infested the folks into avoiding the large stretch of land by whatever means necessary. One evaded every inch of territory, so fearful as if one intake of breath on the disgraced might inflict dishonor upon themselves. 

If transport did manage to escape the aftermath of a carefully calculated storm, and the path was abnormally clear and safe, they must wind their vehicles up, up, up against the extensive driveway. Those that would return from the perilous trek, recounted the upward climb as a never ending spiral, wondering if the end was an honest sight or a mere betrayal of facts. Maybe the chateau was a facade against the haunting mist and no ruins lay bare on top of the hill. Many only returned in response to defeat, the spiral so exhausting, a labyrinth that seemed to direct them towards the exit, and they came back in large droves, with only a sprinkling truly able to state that they had accomplished the impossible. 

If even that did not deter, if even nature's own warning did not bear any heavy weight, the task that succeeded cast a heavy cloud against the gullible mind. It filled the most determined with dread, and the most weak stepped away until they pressed their backs against the hard, cold wall and hid their faces with shame. Even the most unfeeling would feel.

What arised within the ruined hulk of mess, was the venomous and armoured gaze that could drill bullets into your body, and peel the skeletons hidden in your closet until they felt far removed from you, an entity of their own. Her hands could wrap themselves within your pumping heart and strangle it until your lungs felt crushed, until you felt paralysed by the need to move, to do something, until oxygen felt far out of reach. One would finally understand the vitality of breathing when it finally seemed impossible to do so. Amongst this vulnerability and intoxicating hesitance, the shell of a woman would gaze at you with raw disgust. Her nails, once clasping dollar bills and golden chains, now cracked and worn, gripped your own skin. A subconscious welling of disgust trailed within, almost natural, succeeded by admonishment, forcing your own mind to feel pity and sorrow. Your eyes deceive you and one can only smell the stench and can only see the grime. One rips their hand away instinctively, but an apology wells in their eyes, a sight that the woman has seen for a while. 

Rebecca was her first name, and she inhabited the ruins of the castle. She had become a living legend, the villain of the tale, but essentially an enigma. Her home was once vast and beautiful and valuable. She emphasised valuable in a wistful tone, as a visitor could only avert their eyes from the ruined state of not only the chateau but of Rebecca itself. The castle had certainly strayed from its grandeur, becoming much a shell as the woman who owned it. The cobblestone path was meant to resemble the entree before the main course that was the chateau itself. Now it was torment and caused many to turn back, a sight that meant Rebecca had less and less visitors. 

The foolish youth turned away in fear of garnering the attention of the infamous Rebecca, if they could ever gather the courage to continue up, up, up the winding driveway. The hungry business winced at the sight of the scrutinising glare and turned away, content without an answer. The roaming strangers were left with the remnants of kindness that Rebecca had left to give. Some escaped her gaze, and slept on the edges of her property while some were offered a warm bed and a meal. 

No, Rebecca was faced with only two kinds: the government officials, reminding her of the debt that she was now buried under, or the local tourists, fed by the haunted stories of the townsfolks, with curiosity, hunger and slight boredom filling their bellies. The most fearless of townsfolk were the only constant companions for Rebecca, driven by their humanity as they offered food to someone who once had every materialistic richness that one enviously desired but could now barely acquire a pan to cook their eggs in. 

Saturday, 28 September 2024

"The Sword" is on Goodreads

Goodreads

I'm very excited to announce that my book, "The Sword" is available to view on Goodreads! If you've read the book, you can leave a rating and a review or you can now add it to your shelf, if you want to read it. To view "The Sword" on Goodreads, click here

To order, you can reach me through my email, which can be found if you click on "my complete profile". If you can not reach me through there, you can comment down below :)

Sunday, 25 August 2024

"The Sword" Update

Hello,

I just wanted to come on here and express my gratitude to everyone who has reached out to me, whether it be on here or on social media to buy or order my book. It took a long time to make with a lot of thought and I'm really happy that its out in the world now. The good news is we managed to sell out every single one in such a short period of time! I never expected this much demand and I'm really thankful. Because of the demand, we've ordered more of "The Sword" to be printed and it is available now!

The Sword by Najwa M

To order, you can reach me through my email, which can be be found if you click on "my complete profile". If you can not reach me through there, you can comment down below :)

Najwa M

Saturday, 20 July 2024

"The Sword" Release

The Sword by Najwa M

It's finally here! I am incredibly happy to announce that my debut novella, "The Sword", with an exclusive bookmark launched on my birthday and is available to order by reaching through my email, which can be found if you click on "my complete profile". If you can not reach me through there, you can comment down below :)

I appreciate anyone who can buy the book and I've had so much wonderful support while writing it. It took me a few years to write as I managed writing, editing and all the logistics as I still had school and exams but I'm very proud that I got it published. Many people put a lot of hard work into the creation of this novella so show some love. 

Celeste Albus is the heir to the throne of Aerion, a kingdom in the midst of a realm ripped apart from the Great War, a conflict that forced the Energy Guardians into near exile and left a bruising mark on the Elemental victors. With the tide beginning to turn and the wounds of an old war beginning to heal, Celeste is preparing for her ascension with a sword gifted to her on a momentous twentieth birthday. 

But the sword harbours some deceptive links to her origins, establishing the unravelling of her own existence, as the past, present and future collide. Facing uncertainty across all paths, she starts to uncover secrets that have consequences on everyone, especially on the growing peace within. Now racing to prevent another war, both inside and outside the kingdom, Celeste must truly fathom her purpose and what it means for the new world. 

Friday, 14 June 2024

Autumn

He truly hates autumn.

They liked to say autumn was a season of wonder, of new beginnings as the past was swept aside, with the leaves falling off trees, the hands buried in coats, the dogs barking in parks and the children laughing in the playground. It was deceitful, he glared, filled with spite. Leaves fell off trees because the bond of leaf and branch had weakened, science had dictated it so. Wind carried it away, forcing them to separate and never to see another again. Hands buried in coats hindered human interaction, although he quite enjoyed that fact, but often caused collisions on the footpath as one went away with the other bumping into them. It was quite strange, he observed, as they acknowledged the other but continued on each other's path.

He supposed that was what he seemed to other people. Just a stranger they bumped into on the footpath. A small overlap on their universal path but never to be seen again. He knew they would never wonder what happened to him. It wasn't like being given a trophy by a stranger or being served by a waiter in a grand hotel. Those were core memories, forever etched into their minds but people bump into one another everyday and faded from one hour to the next. But never to him. Never mind, he never won awards or saw no need to visit grand hotels. Those strangers on the footpath were all he had and he remembered every face. Whether they were old or young or weary or elated. Whether they rushed past him, barely sparing an apologetic glance or smiled at him, embracing the walk. He remembered them all. 

It did not change his opinion of autumn. The new beginnings optimistic people often referred to were a facade for the bracing of the plunge in temperatures in the following months. It irritated him, yes, that he couldn't take one foot outside his apartment building without the bristle of dried leaves beneath his feet but he'd rather the winter chill arrive sooner. At least it did not have mood swings; bitterly cold one day and slightly warm the next. Autumn and spring were all the same, differing in temperament of temperatures, as one season tended to be warmer than the next. Never mind, spring was supposedly filled with hope, just as he believed autumn was filled with despair. 

But he did not obsess over the underlying effect of the season. He hated autumn the most, yes and remembered every human who could not place him in a crowd even if their life depended on it but may, july, october, january were still the same for him. Months on months of restlessness, teetering on to madness, as summer came and went and the ocean that seemed to beckon towards him swelled and thrashed but never swum in.

The ocean didn't call to him as it grew colder. Maybe that's why he liked winter, each passing day was a sign it would end, that summer would be here. But autumn just meant that winter was coming, it meant more minutes would have to pass before the salty air would even seem seducing. Now, it was cold and barren and the water would feel as cold as the air they breathed themselves. He sighed, staring at his window.

He hoped it would all change. Summer was upon him soon. Autumn waved far away in his gaze but he should have begged. Because as sunlight rose on a fateful fall day, bathing his old, rundown house in a glow and the sight was one to behold. 

He did not notice the creaking of the doors the night before, nor the tiptoeing or the hidden shadows. The lights continued to flicker and remain aglow and he assumed all was well. His snores were the only sound that filled the echoing hallways of the vacant buildings, a feline purring ever so slightly but it awoke with a yelp, scampering out the door and into the street as the cars honked their horns and the glow of screens never seemed to waver. Slightly at first, a movement in the very core of the earth that no one noticed as they walked quicker and talked faster, afraid of wasting time, colliding with another but swerving away. Only he awoke with alarm, faltering, pausing as his breath quickened. The paintings started to shake, begging for relief as the walls of the house began to collapse inwards. 

He didn't scream. He didn't cry. He did not beg to be saved, nor did he even attempt to save himself. He saw no ending that was worse than what had befell him, saw no reprieve except this feeling. The house remained a wreck for a few months. It had collapsed inwards so it caused no pain for any neighbours. They were too afraid to venture inside and no saviours came. No one was sure of the man who had dwelled, whether he remained inside, or had ventured to the ocean or to the footpath he often strolled, and no one decided to even see. 

He truly hated autumn.