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Wednesday, 25 December 2024

Reflections on 2024

As 2024 draws to a close and 2025 is nearly upon us, I've decided to look back on some of my New Years Resolutions I created this time last year, click for New Years Resolutions for 2024 and see if I have accomplished any of them. 

The first one was publishing my solo book and I'm so grateful to say that I've achieved this resolution. It took me a few years to write and many people put a lot of hard work into this creation but I'm happy to say its out in the world. If you've been following along, I published it in my birthday month and for more information, go to "The Sword" Release. If you are still wanting to order, you can reach me through my email, which can be found if you click on "my complete profile". You can also always comment down below :)

My second New Years Resolution was to be more active on Goodreads. I tried to refresh it nearer the start of the year but eventually forgot about it and it became something I pushed aside until it faded. But on a more positive and unexpected note, The Sword is available to add on Goodreads! I always imagined what it would be like to have one of my written works on Goodreads especially as it is a platform that readers use all the time. For more information, go to "The Sword" is on Goodreads to discover how to find my book on the website. 

Another of my Resolutions is to start writing more and this was definitely a resolution I was expecting to not really occur. Writing has been more pushed aside as I focus more on school and marketing for my book but I'm glad to see that I pushed through some writer's drought and managed to write a few stories over the year. Writing stories is the reason I started this blog and I'm glad that I managed to return to my roots.

Finally, my last resolution was to drive and yes, I got my license! 

Some other amazing things happened to me this year. I got my first job, and I'm really enjoying it so far. Its been nice to earn some money and makes you feel really independent. I also got a prestigious award, where I earned Dux, which means top of the year in terms of academics. The award really validates all my hard work this year, through balancing publishing my book, working for the first time, writing stories, social life and still keeping up with my schoolwork and assessments. 

Next year will be a year of lasts where I actually have to decide my future path. I will definitely still be updating as well as writing stories and wishing everyone a happy holidays!

See you in 2025 :)

Saturday, 30 November 2024

the old cafe

The fog curled around the edges of the cobblestone street, and the muted hum of chatter echoed outside the dimly lit alley, circling the place. A small bell could be heard amongst the breeze but it hung like a forgotten charm, merely a reminder of countless patrons that had passed in another life. The sound of the door was muffled by the rich scent of espresso and aging wood that had faded fingerprints at every corner, of curious children, of impatient young people, of the tired elderly, all had scraped their hands over the weary wood to grab a coffee before breakfast, during midday or even a few rare night owls. 

The cafe was a relic from another era, though it seemed timeless in its quiet glory. It was a victorious investment, the only remaining building that had withstood the trauma of life, from wars, divorces, petty robberies and financial crises. The dark wood paneling on the walls bore the marks of decades of life as much as the entrance - rings from long-forgotten teacups, faint ink stains that told stories of writers long gone, marks on the floor of the many footsteps that had wandered through and scratches from purses that had been thrown on the tables in a morning rush. The air was thick with the weight of souls and their history, as if every wall had absorbed the tales of those that sought refuge here and every chair had wrapped themselves around every patron in an effort to placate. 

Past the corner, a lonely figure sat, glancing at the window beside him, hunched slightly over an empty mug of coffee. His face was fatigued with old age, of worries that had long escaped but weighed heavy, his hands were tapping idly on the rim of the mug, calloused and rough of hard labour and his eyes were downcast, permanently tired but observant. He wasn't searching for anyone in particular, rather judging the passer-goers quietly and just gazing into the distance. A soft trickle of rain had begun, streaking the window, running down like forgotten memories. 

The man did not pay attention to any of the other members of the cafe. Some rushed in, eager to escape the rain and looked rather annoyed, some came in laughing, the rain soaking them and the man knew they would probably be sick the next day but he suspected they didn't particularly care. He was envious of them, their youth and ignorance of life's hardships and would rather they not flaunt their joy in his face. Some sat at the table beside him, chanting and chugging their coffees at speedy rates so they could depart to their jobs or their loved ones. It was always one of the two. Life was labouring away to earn income or partaking in engagements with those you loved. He had neither.

The man didn't answer when the waitresses asked if he wanted another cup, if a woman brushed past him and whispered a breathy sorry in a hurry or if a curious neighbouring child loudly asked if he was okay as he had sat, unmoving for a while, before their embarrassed parents whisked him away, throwing him apologetic gazes as if their sheer presence would evoke an unnatural reaction from him. His gaze drifted from the window towards the old jukebox in the corner, where faint echoes of a jazz tune played, something from a happier life. The tune was familiar, but like the cafe, untouched and its memory slightly out of reach, only half formed. 

The man visibly half smiled half grimaced at the tune. It was a faint taste of the past, something to treasure but knew he could never return to. Conversations floated throughout the cafe but the words seemed to blend in with other sounds - the soft clink of spoons in cups, the rhythmic hiss of the espresso machine, the bags placed on the seats and the footsteps of souls entering, then leaving, coming in and departing again. 

Always arriving and then exiting. Over and over again. 

But he stayed. Alone. 

Monday, 28 October 2024

the enigma atop the perilous trek

The ruins of a chateau swayed sinisterly, with the echoing breeze wrapping itself around the alluring figure and enveloping the surroundings in a haunting haze. The remains lay atop a looming hill, with one wondering if it was a protector or a dictator of the town that lay beneath it. The cobblestone path strayed from intentions of warmth and cast a hopeless glow in the swirling night sky. It deceived those that were fearless enough to wander the vicinity, the foolish youth that confidently cast aside the treacherous warnings in an attempt of their own self worth, the hungry businessmen, intending to convince the owner of profit margins and tourism worth, or the roaming strangers, with an eye for survival and any place to rest. Those that returned with the reputation of forcing themselves to make the trek did so to placate themselves, with intentions that strayed from witnessing the concealed. It was a hopeless journey, but curiosity could not be suppressed.

If the mind had reluctantly settled upon undertaking the journey, intention be damned, then one had to account for other disasters. The path was often blocked by fallen trees, with the whirlwind of storms and winds thrashing against the weak, uprooting the evergreen in an incredulous, senseless manner, knocking them down like pebbles and it made out so carefully that they just had to lay upon the singular road that would bring visitors to the chateau. The whispers from the cowardly town below suggested that nature was intentionally warning, protecting the living from whatever strange inhabitants, and the rumours had infested the folks into avoiding the large stretch of land by whatever means necessary. One evaded every inch of territory, so fearful as if one intake of breath on the disgraced might inflict dishonor upon themselves. 

If transport did manage to escape the aftermath of a carefully calculated storm, and the path was abnormally clear and safe, they must wind their vehicles up, up, up against the extensive driveway. Those that would return from the perilous trek, recounted the upward climb as a never ending spiral, wondering if the end was an honest sight or a mere betrayal of facts. Maybe the chateau was a facade against the haunting mist and no ruins lay bare on top of the hill. Many only returned in response to defeat, the spiral so exhausting, a labyrinth that seemed to direct them towards the exit, and they came back in large droves, with only a sprinkling truly able to state that they had accomplished the impossible. 

If even that did not deter, if even nature's own warning did not bear any heavy weight, the task that succeeded cast a heavy cloud against the gullible mind. It filled the most determined with dread, and the most weak stepped away until they pressed their backs against the hard, cold wall and hid their faces with shame. Even the most unfeeling would feel.

What arised within the ruined hulk of mess, was the venomous and armoured gaze that could drill bullets into your body, and peel the skeletons hidden in your closet until they felt far removed from you, an entity of their own. Her hands could wrap themselves within your pumping heart and strangle it until your lungs felt crushed, until you felt paralysed by the need to move, to do something, until oxygen felt far out of reach. One would finally understand the vitality of breathing when it finally seemed impossible to do so. Amongst this vulnerability and intoxicating hesitance, the shell of a woman would gaze at you with raw disgust. Her nails, once clasping dollar bills and golden chains, now cracked and worn, gripped your own skin. A subconscious welling of disgust trailed within, almost natural, succeeded by admonishment, forcing your own mind to feel pity and sorrow. Your eyes deceive you and one can only smell the stench and can only see the grime. One rips their hand away instinctively, but an apology wells in their eyes, a sight that the woman has seen for a while. 

Rebecca was her first name, and she inhabited the ruins of the castle. She had become a living legend, the villain of the tale, but essentially an enigma. Her home was once vast and beautiful and valuable. She emphasised valuable in a wistful tone, as a visitor could only avert their eyes from the ruined state of not only the chateau but of Rebecca itself. The castle had certainly strayed from its grandeur, becoming much a shell as the woman who owned it. The cobblestone path was meant to resemble the entree before the main course that was the chateau itself. Now it was torment and caused many to turn back, a sight that meant Rebecca had less and less visitors. 

The foolish youth turned away in fear of garnering the attention of the infamous Rebecca, if they could ever gather the courage to continue up, up, up the winding driveway. The hungry business winced at the sight of the scrutinising glare and turned away, content without an answer. The roaming strangers were left with the remnants of kindness that Rebecca had left to give. Some escaped her gaze, and slept on the edges of her property while some were offered a warm bed and a meal. 

No, Rebecca was faced with only two kinds: the government officials, reminding her of the debt that she was now buried under, or the local tourists, fed by the haunted stories of the townsfolks, with curiosity, hunger and slight boredom filling their bellies. The most fearless of townsfolk were the only constant companions for Rebecca, driven by their humanity as they offered food to someone who once had every materialistic richness that one enviously desired but could now barely acquire a pan to cook their eggs in. 

Saturday, 28 September 2024

"The Sword" is on Goodreads

Goodreads

I'm very excited to announce that my book, "The Sword" is available to view on Goodreads! If you've read the book, you can leave a rating and a review or you can now add it to your shelf, if you want to read it. To view "The Sword" on Goodreads, click here

To order, you can reach me through my email, which can be found if you click on "my complete profile". If you can not reach me through there, you can comment down below :)

Sunday, 25 August 2024

"The Sword" Update

Hello,

I just wanted to come on here and express my gratitude to everyone who has reached out to me, whether it be on here or on social media to buy or order my book. It took a long time to make with a lot of thought and I'm really happy that its out in the world now. The good news is we managed to sell out every single one in such a short period of time! I never expected this much demand and I'm really thankful. Because of the demand, we've ordered more of "The Sword" to be printed and it is available now!

The Sword by Najwa M

To order, you can reach me through my email, which can be be found if you click on "my complete profile". If you can not reach me through there, you can comment down below :)

Najwa M